• @ArbitraryValue@sh.itjust.works
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    10 days ago

    It’s interesting how just a few instances of surprise rejection early in life can have a big effect on personality. I ended up paranoid, always assuming that no one could really like me and anyone who acted as if he or she did was just pitying me or playing some cruel prank on me that I was too socially inept to see.

    It got to the point that when I went to a school dance (I didn’t want to but my parents made me) and the prettiest girl in the class asked me to dance with her, I actually got upset. I couldn’t believe that she sincerely wanted to. I said yes because it would have been rude to say no, but I was convinced that everybody including her was secretly laughing at me.

    I only considered the possibility that she was sincere years later, when I was an adult, but even now my brain is telling me “Nah, loser, she just felt sorry for you.”

    • @lightnsfw@reddthat.com
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      It felt so weird when I got to college and started working and people were just treating me like a normal person. It took a long time for me to stop defaulting to trying to figure out what kind of trick they were playing on me. I still don’t know wtf I did wrong as a child that made everyone decide I was to be ostracized.

      • Gloomy
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        I am currently doing my bachelor in padagogical science and I can ensure you that group dynamics and individuals position in those groups very seldom have anything to do with the individual. There are contributing factors in all personalities involved, but it more often comes down to how a group is situated in what context. Often youngh people internalise their roles and continue to act according to them in different groups. So, take it as a scientific fact that you very likey didn’t do anything wrong as a child, nor had a personality trade that was the sole contribute to beeing ostracized.

    • I didn’t have nearly the same awful relationship with rejection as you, but I had a similar experience as you did at your dance. I’m pretty introverted and rarely join social circles, for a bit of context.

      When I went to college, we had a directory of everyone in the building with a picture and name (200 people, more or less). So naturally, we (roommates) picked out our favorites, yet few of us did anything about it. One roommate asked the girl out that he picked (she was my #2), and they ended up dating, and he convinced my to go to dance with him. I went, and he was late (probably making out or something), and my #1 waved me over from across the room, so I went over and talked. We ended up exchanging numbers, dating, and now she’s my wife. Unfortunately, she had already applied to transfer to another school, so we dated long distance for a while before getting married, but it worked out. I still kick myself for waiting so long to ask her out, because we could have spent that time together instead of over video calls.

      A bit of confidence can really go a long way, and screw all the kids who reject others in those formative years. When I see my kids do anything similar, I come down on them really hard, because I don’t want my kids to be the reason other kids feel rejected.

      • @captainlezbian@lemmy.world
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        Ok but there’s a variety of forms of rejection. I had painful rejection experiences when I was young, some were kids being shitty (not ok), some were kids just not getting along with me (sucks but fine), and some were shit like romantic (necessary for personal development of all parties and as a happily married adult I’m grateful, no matter how embarrassed I was at 16). Part of me gaining confidence was me learning to be someone people liked (alongside my peers getting old enough to find me funny). And I’ve seen people who have confidence and no likability, they range from annoying to in need of severe professional help

    • @Jimmycrackcrack@lemmy.ml
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      It’s not an entirely faulty line of thinking in that environment. Those bastard kids really did do that kind of thing all the time and they found it hilarious. When all your experiences up until that point made such an unexpected scenario seem unlikely, the chances of it being a cruel prank instead probably really are higher or even higher still someone recognising your plight and trying to be charitable whilst not quite realising that that hurts almost as much.

      As you probably guessed I didn’t enjoy school a whole lot either. I hope she was sincere though dude. God knows school fucks with your mind.

    • @Echolynx@lemmy.zip
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      I agree. I haven’t really been able to shake off feeling like an outsider due to a combination of a sheltered upbringing + social delays + social alienation.

      It’s almost impossible for my brain to think that other people care without some malicious motive.

    • @yamanii@lemmy.world
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      always assuming that no one could really like me and anyone who acted as if he or she did was just pitying me or playing some cruel prank on me that I was too socially inept to see.

      Same, even went to tinder to try to get some validation, but still felt like they were just pitying me and always ended up ghosting my matches and never doing anything besides the initial small talk, it’s a hole that’s very hard to crawl out of.

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        Uh, what’s your secret to getting matches on Tinder? I can’t imagine trying to meet women in order to feel validated. I did online dating before apps, when people had to have written profiles and send messages. I thought I was writing thoughtful messages to women whose profiles made them seem like they might want to hear from me, but I got ignored so much that it was really hard on my self-esteem.

        Am I ugly? My grandma says I’m not ugly…

        Edit: I just assumed that you’re a heterosexual man like me, but maybe you’re a woman getting matches from men? That would be very validating, according to what I’ve heard.

        • @yamanii@lemmy.world
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          I’m a man, and I really don’t know too since I too consider myself ugly, but seems like having a few photos where I dressed something like high casual helped I guess, also a photo with your pet if you have one.

  • Jake Farm
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    11511 days ago

    I had a similar experience in middle school. It fucking sucked.

    • @JasonDJ@lemmy.zip
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      Eh, they are a less inhibited form of adults, and a product of their upbringing.

      They sense and exploit weakness for personal gain. Plenty of adults do that too. That’s where they learn it from.

      • Yup, and I try very hard to bully my kids whenever they’re bullying others so they get a taste of their own medicine, and reward them when they’re excellent to others for the same reason.

        My kid was a selfish brat for a bit, so I completely removed all of my attention for a bit, and I told them exactly why I was doing it. They stewed for a bit, then eventually apologized and I showered them with tons of attention.

        Hopefully my kids don’t end up being little terrorists, but if they do, it wasn’t for lack of trying to instill some sense of humanity in them.

        • @candybrie@lemmy.world
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          Aren’t you teaching them how effective bullying is? And that it’s ok for an adult to use it to get the behavior they want? Or do you face any consequences for your bullying?

          • I’m being pretty loose with terminology here. I don’t call them names or anything, but I make sure punishments are directly related to how they mistreat others.

            For example, if my kid is bullying others at the park, I remove them from the park until they’re ready to apologize or it’s time to go home, and I don’t mind embarrassing them in front of their friends. Playing at the park is a privilege, and I’m happy to revoke that. That said, sometimes my SO will go overboard on punishments, and I’ll step in to protect them if that happens (and they do the same for me). If they are misusing something to bully others (e.g. their bike), I’ll take it away until they apologize.

            There’s always a discussion about why the behavior wasn’t acceptable, how they can make it right, and what the consequences are. And every time we make it clear that we love them, it’s just that specific behavior that’s the issue.

            It has worked pretty well so far.

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      Kids are Reddit. If they sense weakness; the others will pile on.

      One shining star will talk about the injustice of it all in the aftermath, and everyone will privately forgive themselves and conveniently forget until the next time it happens.

      The solution is to be arrogant. Insist your position in their society and force your presence. If you show you have self worth, others will be forced to grudgingly acknowledge it

      • @teslasaur@lemmy.world
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        Kids are Reddit. If they sense weakness; the others will pile on.

        I’m all for a little reddit-bashing but fucking lmao. Did they bully you on askreddit or something?

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          I think it was more that people were prone to ask rhetorical questions in guise of actual discussion

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        Kids are Reddit. If they sense weakness; the others will pile on.

        The same happens here. Just try to say anything remotely positive about Twitter/X, Elon Musk, or conservatives in general. I don’t even like any of those, but sometimes I call out hypocrisy and get absolutely dumped on (even got a couple death threats). The problem isn’t with Reddit, it’s with social media in general, it really brings the worst kinds of people together.

        People suck. Try to be just a little better than the person next to you and we’ll all hopefully get through this.

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          You’re right. I’d argue that lemmy has the advantage of not being so popular, and that the mindset is by default more counter-culture than status-quo (otherwise we’d still be on the major sites), so I do think that the people here tend to pile on less… though I do admit that there are plenty of pylons here

  • thisisbutaname
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    At camp some guys and girls were playing in a tent, I was not included.

    One got out and told me I could join. I tried to and they all laughed at me. Still hurts a bit.

  • @blueamigafan@lemmy.world
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    Describes a lot of my childhood to be honest I was a social pariah for some reason. Completly changed when I went to college and made new friends, and now a lot of my happiest memories surround my college years. I even met my wife there!

  • stebo
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    Being called an ugly pimple head for a whole year will also do it

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      Man. I used to sing a song to any kid who got a pimple when I was a teenager. “Big pimplin from WV and if you squeeze him too hard he pop all over the place!” With a little spin on the V to make it rhyme with place.

      Had every kid in the neighborhood singing it to each other when they’d get pimples.

      I hope the pimples left you alone man. If not I hope you came to terms with it.

          • @Azzu@lemm.ee
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            There are perfectly fine people on 4chan. Nothing about 4chan itself is even close to Nazism. It’s a diverse message board. The worst scum of humanity posts there, but as this image literally shows, there are perfectly normal conversations there, a lot actually.

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                I think there’s a pretty big difference between an anonymous website that lets the hateful and the edgy post whatever awful words they want, and the top down corruption of a giant established algorithm driven site used for communication around the world.

              • Sure, and there are plenty of good people still on Twitter/X. Don’t label people based on sites they use or people they affiliate with, label them based on their actual actions, otherwise you’ll be more wrong than right.

              • @AVincentInSpace@pawb.social
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                this guy is so close to realizing that just because a few assholes hang out somewhere doesn’t mean the entire space is a toxic shithole

                • lad
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                  Nah, I’d say far from close

          • Phoenixz
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            Okay, so you’ve never been on 4chan, you know nothing of it’s quite long and colorful history. You heard a few things and went straight to “well, Hitler!”

            You must be fun at parties 🎉

      • First of all, that’s absolute bullshit(but I won’t discuss about that with you, since you already made clear that you clearly lack the ability to think about more complex things), but also even without 4chan teenagers can turn into absolute fucking monsters that will bully everyone who’s slightly different and ruin their lives.

  • I Cast Fist
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    I got a more direct case of rejection. 12yo me, at new school, 2nd week of classes, one of the girls that I thought was very pretty was asking others who they fancied. Once she came up to me, I meekly replied “You”. I got a very loud and angry “I HATE YOU!” as an answer. Up to this day, more than 20 years later, I have no fucking clue to any possible why, in her mind, I deserved that reply.

    • vortic
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      You got that reply because you surprised her and her immature 12 y/o brain spat that out as the best response on short notice. It’s entirely likely that response had nothing to do with you in particular.

    • @Zomg@lemmy.world
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      B-B-b-b-BAKA!

      But you probably caught her off guard. I wouldn’t expect 12 year olds to really know how to express their feelings like that.

      • I Cast Fist
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        I don’t think it was a tsundere, given that during the rest of the year she avoided me and I noticed at least two times were our eyes met, she frowned then looked away. We had zero interactions during the rest of the year.

    • NιƙƙιDιɱҽʂ
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      Lol, that reaction probably haunts her, too. “Why was I so mean to that boy for no fucking reason 20 years ago?!”

      • I Cast Fist
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        Would be funny if I could find her on instagram or wherever and ask. Too bad I only remember her first name

    • @grrgyle@slrpnk.net
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      Ouch. But also,

      I once got angry and through a fit at a friend for buying me a surprise gift. I couldn’t even tell you why, but I was very upset.

      Try not to put too much stock in the bubbling brew that is childhood emotions.

  • Python
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    Plot twist: Anon was at a college party where everyone else was 20+, so they didn’t want to diddle him

  • @rooster_butt@lemm.ee
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    I was at a gathering with some guy friends meeting some girls from a different school. The slightly older brother (let’s call him Jay) of one of my friend’s had driven us there. We were playing spin the bottle outside the apartment building. I was rejected after the bottle spun by a girl saying she didn’t want to kiss me specifically. I got hurt/mad then my impulsive ADHD brain decided to get even. I saw a spigot on the floor, aimed it strait at the girl that rejected me and turned it on. More than the intended target got wet. Jay got really mad and I just ran. Once he caught up to me I thought he was going to beat me up. Instead he just laughed and told me I was going to have to leave and walk home.

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    When I read those, I consider myself lucky. I’m not handsome, normal sized, not athletic at all, not very sociable, closer to poor than rich, yet I never experienced any of those. Always had a few close friends and never have been single for more than 4 consecutive months since my 15th birthday. And I’m almost 40.

    Is it a matter of luck? Of countries culture? Of type of schools/univ? Of social groups or generation ? I truly wonder.

    • Zement
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      Well some are lucky or simply befriend the bully. Whatever works…

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      In this case like this I feel like anon just has shitty friends and needed to find a group he fits in better with. If you’re awkward and weird, you’ve just got to find the awkward and weird kids to be friends with (anime club, theater, ect) there’s even awkward and weird girls there!

      Looks don’t even matter that much in dating (unless you’ve got porn brainrot). So long as you’re not deformed or super obese, someone will be attracted to you, and chances are you’ll find them attractive too. Just don’t be a creep and have interest outside of video games and modern dating is pretty easy.

    • @grrgyle@slrpnk.net
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      You’re probably a nice person and a decent hang. Really that’s what most people are looking for imho

  • @sit@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    Anon didn’t have the abilities to digest the situation to conclude what needs to be done to prevent this in the future.

    Anon hopefully is older and wiser now.

    I was anon once…

  • @FuryMaker@lemmy.world
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    Similar story where a University club got together at someone’s apartment to stay the night, lots of previously unacquainted people in the group, after a night on the town.

    Chatting, drinking, in a circle. One girl started giving the guys shoulders rubs, but went to bed when she came up to me in the circle.

    Kept telling myself I dodged a bullet anyway.

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        It never pays to assume, especially not horseshit like that.

        We can have a separate discussion about why talking about prostitutes with anything less than respect is not okay.