Never had it, probably never will. So I’m curious.
(If the question isn’t allowed, which I don’t think is, for some reason I’ll delete the post)
Thank you.
Never had it, probably never will. So I’m curious.
(If the question isn’t allowed, which I don’t think is, for some reason I’ll delete the post)
Thank you.
The sensations of sex vary significantly between individuals. I could tell you what my experience of sex is like, but depending on your specific body, it might feel wholly different. The only way you’re going to be able to satisfy that curiosity is to engage in the activity yourself.
Don’t give up on finding out for yourself if it’s important to you. I didn’t have sex with someone else until I was 29 and then spent my early 30’s making up for lost time.
For me, I was my own worst enemy. I believe that I was unlovable and unattractive (and also had some queer identify related complicating factors). I thought that sex and intimacy were transactional and that in order to find someone interested in having sex with me required me to be a person I was not. The error in my thinking was that sex was a goal, rather than a side effect of building meaningful connections with other humans.
Your mileage may vary though.
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I’m sorry you feel that way, but it’s not true. All you’re missing is self-confidence and self-worth. It may not feel like it, but you are worthy of love and validation. Love yourself because you are alive and trying.
It’s not easy, especially if you’ve built up a lot of myths about how you’re broken or unlovable. Find the things you like about yourself and go from there. All you have to do is keep trying.
The things that I like keep me away from women and society, I hate the outside world except when there’s no one outside, honestly I loved COVID time. Is not going to work, plus I’m have no money.
I genuinely don’t think anyone would want to fuck me under those conditions. I can’t approach anyone unless is for a job or a forced dialogue like at the market.
For some women that would be a turn off for a romantic partner, yes. You don’t have to plan a future with everyone you have sex with. There are plenty of women who want something casual and low attachment and would not be bothered at all by anything you mentioned.
Women are not a monolith. Each one of us is different and have different wants, needs, and desires. Don’t let the bullsh!t about you not being desirable stop you from trying. Rejection sucks, but never trying is much worse.
I live in the middle of nowhere. Being this weird and picky is not going to work with anyone dude. I have 0 chances, rejection and never trying suck both equally, but I can’t change the rules. The only way women would want me is if I was the only man available in a 30 km radius and even that is being generous.
I don’t know you or anything about you, but that sounds a lot like my internal dialogue did before I realized I was autistic. I do have a personality, I had just been hiding it as a form of masking, so I didn’t know it very well. I know autism is often used as an insult, but for me, it’s just a different perspective (I’m aware that not every autistic person is able to articulate what their experience is like, and I’m not discounting that it can be a very serious disability, this is just my view), and I’m absolutely not trying to insult you.
I’m either incredibly picky or 100% utilitarian depending on my stress and situation, and I’m very different from other people, so I sometimes feel really weird. I also often consider myself a failed adult, though I’m in a situation that many would call success. And I definitely miss all the personal space I was afforded during covid.
I don’t know if finding out would be as revelatory for you as it was for me, but you may want to look into it. I’m sorry if this was an overstep, I just recognize a lot of my former self in what you write, and I’m much happier since I found out.