• mar_k [he/him]
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    11 months ago

    I’m sorry to hear that. You deserve as much as anyone, you’re not unlovable. I wish I could help you, but I’m not too good at this, or knowing what to say.

    I’ve been suicidal before, and while I haven’t experienced anything like that, I can assure you that life changes for the better for people all the time, even if it doesn’t seem like it will. You’re not stuck. There’s a lot of coldness in this world, but there’s also people you can meet if you put yourself out there. The other comment you got was sort of toxic, but they’re right in that if you put effort in it doesn’t have to be like that.

    I’d also recommend looking for community resources, local counselors, and maybe using a texting crisis line, like this. Idk about lemmy but there’s also probably a lot of productive mental health forums you can find all over the internet, for people with similar experiences that might be able to help you out better.

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        11 months ago

        Ok, I would recommend texting lines and other online services instead of a counselor. I also think finding productive forums for this could help you out (places with actual support, not places that will make you feel worse).

        Don’t ever assure someone in a bad position that it’ll get better.

        I didn’t though. I said “life changes for the better for people all the time,” even people in extreme lifelong conditions like yours. I didn’t assure you anything will get better. I just meant it’s possible and attainable if you work towards it. That might be hard in your current state, but I don’t think it’s impossible. There’s a ton of good people out there. I’d hug you right now if I could.

      • charlie [they/them, comrade/them]
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        11 months ago

        Disability programs in the US are fucking criminal and support programs are actively being dismantled everywhere I look around me. If you need to vent, I’m an open pair of ears.