- cross-posted to:
- 196@lemmy.blahaj.zone
My true self seems to only exist on the internet. I want to be me in meat space, too, but I just lock up most of the time and become completely non-verbal all the while I am aware of it and screaming inside my head to just do this, or say that the way I would on a comment or a chat room.
I applaud your self-control. My true self cannot be contained HAHAHAHAHA
Self-control? No… This is mental illness. And it sucks. :(
I have similar experiences with wanting to desperately be part of conversations, but not being able to expel the words.
Have you looked into selective mutism? Or being a highly sensetive person?
That or Autism (which lends to Selective Mutism). The actual neurodivergency, not the internet’s/4chan’s idea of it. It’s not always as visible and obvious as people think. People can go through their whole lives not knowing due to it impacting them as a series of miscellaneous, tangentially related difficulties and never actually finding out about how it affects your life.
Was gonna say, silly is cool and can be very mysterious
… Giggiddy?
The world needs more silly.
It comes with age … when you are young, you do things to impress others … when you get a bit older, you do things to look respectable … when you get a lot older and death is getting closer, you don’t care anymore and say and do whatever you like
Command accepted.
I have a hard time accepting this isn’t secretly Allie from Hyperbole and a Half drawing these
Yeah those eyes have big simple dog energy
Now that you mention it!
Being mysterious and cool and silly.
Let out silly self!!